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FIC: And I Would Be the One to Hold You Down (Game of Thrones)

And I Would Be the One to Hold You Down (884 words) by anr
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Game of Thrones (TV), A Song of Ice and Fire & Related Fandoms
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Jon Snow/Sansa Stark
Characters: Jon Snow, Sansa Stark
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Wedding Night, Just the Tip, Creampie, Kissing, Sex, Touching, Loss of Virginity, Incest, Brother/Sister Incest, Cousin/Cousin Incest
Summary: Standing, he looks down at Sansa, his expression soft. "My lady?" he offers.
She stands too, her palm sliding against his as their hands adjust. "My lord," she nods.

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2025 Fic Round Up

      Shining Like the Stars
Hope is like the sun. If you only believe in it when you see it, you’ll never make it through the night.
(aka, Five times Rey dreams of Ben.)
Star Wars: Sequel Trilogy. Rey/Ben Solo | Kylo Ren. Mature. February 2025.

      Say the Word and I Will
After the photo.
Supernatural. Jo Harvelle/Dean Winchester. Teen And Up Audiences. February 2025.

      Third From the End
When his fingers catch hers and hold, she smiles and doesn't pull away.
(aka, Five times McCoy and Chapel touch.)
Star Trek: Reboot. Christine Chapel/Leonard "Bones" McCoy. Teen And Up Audiences. April 2025.

      My Heart Is Playing Hide and Seek
She feels too much like she used to after the farm and the girls and Henry, grief and longing warring within her until her love seems like a bitter curse that only her running can save him from.
The Walking Dead. Daryl Dixon/Carol Peletier. Teen And Up Audiences. April 2025.

      Under Different Stars
The days slide into weeks and then months, their grief ebbing as the twins pull them relentlessly forward with gummy smiles and sticky fingers.
Star Wars: Prequel Trilogy. Padmé Amidala/Obi-Wan Kenobi. Teen And Up Audiences. May 2025.

      Heard the Risk Is Drowning
He goes out hunting, dragging her along with him like she wasn't itching for a moment of peace and freedom anyway, rolling his eyes each time she tries to bait him into a game he already knows she'll never let him win.
(aka, Five times Daryl and Carol hang out.)
The Walking Dead. Daryl Dixon/Carol Peletier. Mature. June 2025.

      Aim Your Arrow at the Sky
She gets a job flying local between the original colony and the one on the far side of the continent that's still trying to get itself self-sufficient. She doesn't get to break atmo, but she likes it better than the docks work she was doing back on Gateway, he knows.
"One of the other pilots mentioned a quarantine today," she tells him. "On Fiorina 161."
Aliens. Dwayne Hicks/Ellen Ripley. Mature. June 2025.

      Can You Hear My Heart Through the Prison Bars
It's the warmest sleep he can remember.
(aka, Five times Daryl and Carol touch.)
The Walking Dead. Daryl Dixon/Carol Peletier. Teen And Up Audiences. June 2025.

      Through the Dark Side of the Mornin'
She struggles to keep the mask on after awhile.
The Walking Dead. Daryl Dixon/Carol Peletier. Teen And Up Audiences. July 2025.

      Suddenly the Summer
Haymitch and Effie, after the war.
The Hunger Games. Haymitch Abernathy/Effie Trinket. Mature. July 2025.

      Depression Works the Graveyard Shift
"I wish you were not gone," she says, and he says, but I'm not, T'Pol, I'm not, I'm right here, I am, look at me, see me, I'm here, I'm here, I'm here.
Star Trek: Enterprise. T'Pol/Charles "Trip" Tucker III. Teen And Up Audiences. July 2025.

      Swallows in the Air
She takes a slow drag of the cigarette. And then another. And then says, "you found me." Alone in a clearing of dead leaves and destroyed hope.
He meets her stare evenly. "You found me," he counters.
Ready or Not. Daniel Le Domas/Grace Le Domas. Teen And Up Audiences. August 2025.

      I'd Marry You With Paper Rings
"It's always been you," she whispers against his mouth. "Always. Ever since the farm."
(aka, Five times Carol dreams of marrying Daryl.)
The Walking Dead. Daryl Dixon/Carol Peletier. Mature. September 2025.

      Look Up From the Pavement
He's starting to sweat again, his gut tightening and his pulse kicking into high gear, his dick hardening like he's not in withdrawal and tangled around his sister, her body warm everywhere it's touching him.
(aka, Five times Nick fantasizes about Alicia while high.)
Fear the Walking Dead. Alicia Clark/Nick Clark. Explicit. September 2025.

      Maybe It Might Be Love
She takes pity on him. "Don't worry about it, Kenick. I'm not gonna hold you to it." She tries to keep her tone light and not mean, not disappointed. "Your offer? You can take it back."
He blinks, surprised. "You're sayin' no?"
Grease. Kenickie/Betty Rizzo. Teen And Up Audiences. September 2025.

      Travelling Through the Sky
She moves like no one else he's ever seen fight before, as sleek and graceful as she is deadly, and he allows himself to think beautiful for the shortest ever second in the 'verse before banishing that thought back to whatever special hell it came from.
Firefly. Jayne Cobb/River Tam. Teen And Up Audiences. October 2025.

      Never Want Once
"It's the weed," she thinks he says, tasting the words more than hearing them, "a bad crop, maybe, maybe, I don't --"
"I don't care." She nips at the curve of his jaw, his stubble rough against her lips. "I won't." If they stop now she'll die, she thinks. "I want."
Stranger Things. Chrissy Cunningham/Eddie Munson. Explicit. October 2025.

      When the Sun Won't Let You Sleep
"Just saying," he says, reclining on his pool float. "We're both here, and alone, and wearing very little clothing..."
(aka, Five times Sarah thinks about kissing Nyles.)
Palm Springs. Nyles/Sarah Wilder. Teen And Up Audiences. October 2025.

      Too Soon to Tell You 'I Love You'
"Killing me, sweetheart," he swears into their kiss, "murdering me dead."
She arches into him, her fingers slipping under the hem of his t-shirt. "Good."
(aka, Five times Chrissy and Eddie kiss.)
Stranger Things. Chrissy Cunningham/Eddie Munson. Teen And Up Audiences. November 2025.

      In the Low Lamplight
Her smile is quick and fleeting, barely touching on her lips before disappearing again into her usual frown of grief and anger and stubborn survival, but pretty too, in that way he's been noticing more and more often lately.
(aka, Five times Carol smiles at Daryl.)
The Walking Dead. Daryl Dixon/Carol Peletier. Teen And Up Audiences. November 2025.

      All the Stars We Steal From the Night Sky
Her first time.
(aka, Five times Cassie loses her virginity with Nick for the first time.)
Push. Nick Gant/Cassie Holmes. Explicit. November 2025.

      Holding the Atmosphere
Eddie frowns. "Out?"
Yes. "Out of Hawkins," she says, uncurling on her seat, the idea forming as she talks, "I need to go somewhere else, anywhere else," her words spilling out faster now, "and I'll pay you! I'll pay for the gas, and for everything, I will, just please -- please." She reaches out to him and grabs at his arm, her fingers still shaking but not as bad now, not as terrified, now that she has something -- someone -- to hold onto. "Can you take me?"
Stranger Things. Chrissy Cunningham/Eddie Munson. Teen And Up Audiences. December 2025.

      You Should Come Home
She attends the funeral in a daze.
Gone With the Wind. Rhett Butler/Scarlett O'Hara. Teen And Up Audiences. December 2025.

      Saw the Scoreboard and Ran for My Life
Grace shakes her head. "Trust me," she sighs. "There's no chance of me winning this. I'm as good as dead."
The room goes silent as everybody turns and looks to her as if on some sort of cue.
Grace blinks back at them all, bemused by the synchronicity, "... what?"
(aka, Five times Grace learns about the games the Le Domas' play.)
Ready or Not. Daniel Le Domas/Grace Le Domas. Teen And Up Audiences. December 2025.

      TOTAL FICS: 24
      TOTAL WORDS: 30,454

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d&d: pyra cantha

Pyra Cantha D&D: Summary for 1/16 Game

In tonight's game, ( the rest under a cut for those who don't care. )

And that's where we left off.

Current Mood: tired

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d&d: aurendor

Aurendor D&D: Summary for 1/14 Game

In tonight's game, ( the rest under a cut for those who don't care. )

And that's where we left off.

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fandom: baldur's gate

Baldur's Gate 3: Apophis

For pretty much all video games (at least TTRPGs), I typically have a minimum of three playthroughs going at any time. Baldur's Gate 3 is no exception and, while I'm trying to stay in the habit of playing at least a few times a week, I'm alternating between the playthroughs that I'm focusing on.

The main reason for the multiple playthroughs is that it helps keep me from burning out if I have several different characters who are doing different things at different points in the game. If I'm not in the mood for one particular character's story or the particular part of the plot they're dealing with, I can always switch to another.

On that note? Meet Apophis, my embrace Dark Urge.

I've got to admit, I usually stick with the more good-leaning playthroughs, but it's kinda fun to let loose with the occasional evil one. The playthrough as a whole moves a lot faster than it does when you're playing a good aligned character (and are a completionist like me) since a lot of the various side plots and such start being cut off the later you get in the game, because the characters involved are all dead. And there's some interesting cut scenes and such here and there that you'd otherwise miss, as they're only available when you're taking the evil route.

Major potential spoilers for most of the game, including discussion of some definitely evil actions.

( More under the cut. )

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One of those general updates...

Two days of work down, three days to go. Let's see if I can make it through them. Preferably without strangling any coworkers. 🙃

Overall, it's going to be a busy week. I have D&D tomorrow night, as usual, but my Friday game is also supposed to start back this week after three months of not playing. I'm sure that's going to be very chaotic as everyone tries to remember how to play their characters, both mechanically and personality-wise. Especially since we kinda left off on a cliffhanger thanks to my cleric succeeding on a Divine Intervention.

In addition to that, Critical Role starts back this week after several weeks off. And I still haven't watched the last episode of 2025, because I knew it was going to be entirely combat-based. So, uh, I should probably try to do that during work tomorrow or Thursday if I want to be able to try to watch live on Thursday night.

On the fannish side of things, the first quarter of this year is surprisingly exchange-filled for me, mostly because there's a bunch of new Dragon Age exchanges cropping up that are run by people that I know. In the past, the late autumn and early winter has been the busy season, but several of those have died off the last few years (you're very missed,

femslashex) so that time of the year isn't nearly as exchange heavy as it used to be for me.

Holly Poly (multifandom poly relationships) and The Platonic Ideal (Dragon Age platonic relationships) both already have assignments out, the Crow Contracts Exchange (Dragon Age Crows focused) is in the middle of nominations, Spectre Requisitions (Mass Effect rare relationships) starts nominations later this week, Pride's Solace (Dragon Age Solas focused) starts nominations later this month, and Gaatlock & Lyrium (Dragon Age dwarves and qunari focused) is supposed to be sometime in the spring.

In addition to all that, I'm trying my best to set aside at least a little time most days to play video games. It's easier to find the time some days than others, but I'm doing my best. I've learned from past experience that it's healthier for me overall to, you know, set aside some time to actually do things that I enjoy. So I'm giving it a whirl at least. Right now, I'm mainly focusing on Baldur's Gate 3, but Animal Crossing: New Horizons is getting a free update in the next day or so which may see me playing a bit more of it for a while.

Speaking of health, the less said about my sleep schedule lately the better. It's very much its usual chaotic self, which is about as fun as it sounds.

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fandom: baldur's gate

Baldur's Gate 3: Taviana

Ages ago, I said that I was going to start making posts about my various OCs in video game playthroughs since I mainly play TTRPGs. And then, you know, I never actually did it. So, since I actually managed to spend most of yesterday and today playing Baldur's Gate 3, let's talk about the playthrough that I focused on. Minor spoilers for early Act 3 and a few very, very broad ones for Acts 1-2.

Meet Taviana.

( More under the cut. )

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Video Games

Okay, I'm going to spend all day tomorrow playing video games if it kills me. My plans to set aside time for gaming over the holiday break never actually happened, and with everything going on in the world right now it will do me good to just get offline for a day and spend it wandering Faerûn or Thedas or the Andromeda galaxy.

I'm not sure yet which game I'll focus on, but it's definitely going to be Baldur's Gate 3, Dragon Age: The Veilguard, or Mass Effect: Andromeda because I have ongoing playthroughs in all of them that have been gathering dust for too long.

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d&d: aurendor

Aurendor D&D

To add to a previous posts on the subject, my cleric, Siân, has had a really, really, really bad couple of weeks in-game. Over the course of the last three weeks or so, she has:

( A list of bad things under the cut. )

Poor Siân really is well on her way towards a complete and total mental breakdown at the rate she's going.

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d&d: aurendor

Aurendor D&D: Summary for 1/7 Game

In tonight's game, ( the rest under a cut for those who don't care. )

And that's where we left off.

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real life: d&d

On the D&D front...

It's been several weeks since I played any D&D at all, and I've missed it a lot.

My Wednesday game has been on break the last two weeks because of people having plans for Christmas Eve and New Year's Eve, which wasn't particularly unexpected once we realized both of those holidays fell on Wednesdays this year. We're supposed to be back this week, though, so hopefully nothing happens to push it back. 🤞🏻

... although that reminds me that I still haven't recorded the summary video of the last game. Oops. I should get that done during my lunch break so that I can get it uploaded.

My Friday game has been on hiatus since mid-October because A. the DM desperately needed a mental health break and B. a number of people were going to be unavailable in November and/or December. Right now, the plan is that we're going to start back next week. One player may still be unavailable for a while because of work reasons, but we've got a plan for where her character will be for a bit.

And then there's my Sunday game, which went on hiatus at the end of November. It's a bit more up in the air at the moment when it will start back. One of the players is in the middle of planning his wedding and another is currently in Ireland until the end of February, as they're visiting their boyfriend (and presumably soon-to-be-fiancé if things work out well) to see if living together more long-term works out. She also plans on moving to Ireland if things do work out, so making sure it's somewhere they could see themself living long-term is important too.

We took all of December off just because everyone's schedules were super busy, but as far as I'm aware the plan is that we might have some mini sessions here and there in January and February. We're doing a time skip in the game, so there's lots of opportunities for one or two characters to have some side adventures. Plus we can shift times and even days around a bit for those, depending on people's availability.

The plan is that we'll be back to playing regularly in March once the currently-in-Ireland player is back in the United States, but we'll see if that changes at all.

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real life: advent calendar

Advent Calendar: Cheese

I was able to grab a 12 day cheese advent calendar from Aldi for pretty cheap because I got it in mid-December so it was on sale by that point. They presumably thought it was too late to properly use it, but in my mind a 12 day advent calendar works great for starting it on December 25 vs. a 24/25 day advent calendar which starts at the beginning of the month and goes through Christmas.

So, hey, I ended up getting to have two advent calendars after all! I picked up with this one the day after I finished my Adagio tea one.

( Cheeses under the cut. )

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End of Year Writing Meme 2025

I continue recovering very slowly but at least pretty steadily - and my things are gradually getting out of boxes too. In the meantime, I thought I could probably manage to do the end of year meme, so here it is:

The usual writing meme for the year. (Last year's post is here.)

( Cut for length )